It's been nearly one and a half years since I've posted on my blog....not for lack of desire, but lack of time.
We made the big life changing move from Maryland where I was a small sheep farmer to East Texas where I am trying to still get organized. We bought 25 acres in the Piney Woods of East Texas and are now tree farmers. It's so absolutely peaceful that you can hear pine needles fall! So we decided that our old farm name of Peaceful Acres Farm still held.
When I say it was a big life change I mean that in no uncertain terms.
The Hired Hand (he still holds that honored position) retired at the age of 70 and hasn't stopped working here since he landed in the second U-haul. Both of our grown kids had our first Grand Littles and we've made two trips back to Maryland to love on them,...the most recent I returned from yesterday. We started construction on an Art Workshop for me in June and are still working to finish the interior. I made a huge transition in my diet from meat based to plant based whole foods and have been eating that way for a year....along with that came YUGE health recovery. After I get my life a little more together I'll write more on that....it's definitely a new passion. I've been learning how to garden in zone 9 with Sandy Loam "soil"....it's proving to be a very big challenge! Nonetheless, I'm very excited about zone 9!!! The possibilities are endless! Including Lemon & Lime trees, Tropical fruit trees, Pineapples (already have them going in the garden) and so many other delicious foods...I just have to conquer this Sandy Loam!
There are so many things I haven't done in a year and a half besides write here....art was put on hold, knitting, hooking, photography.....so many of my loves have taken a back to as we get our lives settled and back on track and just enjoy our time together. Believe it or not, neither of us has had a desire to harm the other! :)
How sweet are your words to my taste,
sweeter than honey to my mouth!
I gain understanding from your precepts;
therefore I hate every wrong path.
Your word is a lamp for my feet,
a light on my path.
The video below was the most helpful video I've watched in the last few weeks. It totally explained SO many reasons why I feel the way I do and what the heck is wrong with my body.
The first alarming fact is....STRESS is cumulative!!! Holy Cow! Then why aren't we all smashed out on the floor...dead from it!!! It actually shows me how amazing a body God created; that it can handle a lot of stuff before it just cries....UNCLE!
One of the most troubling facts was the weakness in my legs...more specifically my thighs....although I must say that knowing, is half the battle. They feel like I'm 90 years old when I get up. Even though I've been doing squats for several months and I've seen NO improvement....this would explain why. They are atrophied.
I've also had very high plasma Ferritin for the past 2 years. My doc believed it was due to inflammation caused by the MCAD (Mast Cell Disorder) but I now believe it is caused by Adrenal Fatigue that's been plaguing me for a good 2 years at least that has caused the inflammation. I do remember when I started to get so very tired....after my last battle with anaphylactic shock and having to use the Epi-Pen....filled with epinephrine. Then the Paramedics usually pump me full of Beny and in the ER they pump me some more!. It's ugly!!! Really ugly!!! Then we lambed and that nearly killed me....really. Having the farm just became more of a heartache then it was fun. The work was more then 1 girl can handle on her own....especially when she is nearly 60!!! So last Fall, I sold my sheep (mostly gave them away) and let it all go....it was really a very sad time, but now that I look back, I knew I had to. I knew I was SO tired. The kind of tired sleep doesn't fix. We call it burned out....and literally it is...your adrenals are burned out.
Really. It's a no wonder.
For now, until I see the Bio-Identical Doctor in a few weeks....this is what I'm doing to keep my head above water as I tenderly love my adrenals back to life.....yes, I do believe that the adrenals can be recovered....I know many don't....but I am not of that mind set.
STRESS in our lives is only going to get worse before it gets better. Did you know, retirement and moving are right up there at the top of the STRESS chart with death and divorce! Yeah, soooooo I've got a ways to go before I can sit back on my porch in Texas and drink (unsweet) tea! Although, I'm tempted to find a quiet spot at the beach and soak up the sun after The Farmher's Daughter's wedding in less then 3 weeks! Ahhh!
*Eating a well balanced diet with healing fats, proteins and carbs and that means consuming enough calories to get my metabolism off the ground floor and working again....I think that will come with the adrenals...but what do I know...it's all over my pay grade!!!
*Sleeping 7-8 hours every night
*Using Supplements for Sleep; 5 HTP, Melatonin and Melatonin Blend with Gaba (others I can't think of cause...cognitive ability is impaired!)
*Using Supplements for healing MY body which includes Adrenal Glandulars
*Drinking an organic tea blend infusion (steeped at least 20 minutes) of Ashwagandha, Rhemania, Holy Basil and Licorise to heal the adrenals
*Drinking Golden Milk using Synchro Gold Elixir, coconut milk and honey to help with inflammation
*Using Essential Oils: Positive Energy™ & Sleep Tight™ by Anada Apothecary, my own blends during the day for calming, well being
*Watch very little News....if I can't get it off the computer in 5 minutes then it's not worth the energy
*Prayer & Meditating on Scriptures
We all live in this fallen and broken world and consequently we all carry around these broken and bruised bodies. That is, until we are redeemed on the day of Glory when we shall be given new bodies that will never break and then reside with Jesus in the new heavens and new earth for all of eternity.
My body has been through a lot in almost 58 years. Most recently Lyme Disease & 3 co-infections plus, I've battled MCAD (Mast Cell Activation Disorder) which sent me into anaphylactic shock twice in the past 5 years. That in itself is enough to kill ya!! And if it doesn't kill ya, it will beat you down to a pulp!
Also in the past 5 years within a 2 year span we lost 3 of our 4 parents. That too is enough to break any heart.
Although the MCAD has been much improved, there have been other things ailing me. Things I can't shake. Things that for a while had no name.
"Do not be anxious about your life. Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin. yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these."
Matthew 6:25-29 (more or less)
1 by birth the other by choice and I got here as fast as I could!
WE DID IT!!! I know many of you were skeptical because we've tried SO hard to escape Maryland before, but it's obvious that it was never God's time until now. Can you tell this man of mine is happy....this is epic that he responded with such joy!