How sweet are your words to my taste,
sweeter than honey to my mouth!
I gain understanding from your precepts;
therefore I hate every wrong path.
Your word is a lamp for my feet,
a light on my path.
The video below was the most helpful video I've watched in the last few weeks. It totally explained SO many reasons why I feel the way I do and what the heck is wrong with my body.
The first alarming fact is....STRESS is cumulative!!! Holy Cow! Then why aren't we all smashed out on the floor...dead from it!!! It actually shows me how amazing a body God created; that it can handle a lot of stuff before it just cries....UNCLE!
One of the most troubling facts was the weakness in my legs...more specifically my thighs....although I must say that knowing, is half the battle. They feel like I'm 90 years old when I get up. Even though I've been doing squats for several months and I've seen NO improvement....this would explain why. They are atrophied.
I've also had very high plasma Ferritin for the past 2 years. My doc believed it was due to inflammation caused by the MCAD (Mast Cell Disorder) but I now believe it is caused by Adrenal Fatigue that's been plaguing me for a good 2 years at least that has caused the inflammation. I do remember when I started to get so very tired....after my last battle with anaphylactic shock and having to use the Epi-Pen....filled with epinephrine. Then the Paramedics usually pump me full of Beny and in the ER they pump me some more!. It's ugly!!! Really ugly!!! Then we lambed and that nearly killed me....really. Having the farm just became more of a heartache then it was fun. The work was more then 1 girl can handle on her own....especially when she is nearly 60!!! So last Fall, I sold my sheep (mostly gave them away) and let it all go....it was really a very sad time, but now that I look back, I knew I had to. I knew I was SO tired. The kind of tired sleep doesn't fix. We call it burned out....and literally it is...your adrenals are burned out.
Really. It's a no wonder.
For now, until I see the Bio-Identical Doctor in a few weeks....this is what I'm doing to keep my head above water as I tenderly love my adrenals back to life.....yes, I do believe that the adrenals can be recovered....I know many don't....but I am not of that mind set.
STRESS in our lives is only going to get worse before it gets better. Did you know, retirement and moving are right up there at the top of the STRESS chart with death and divorce! Yeah, soooooo I've got a ways to go before I can sit back on my porch in Texas and drink (unsweet) tea! Although, I'm tempted to find a quiet spot at the beach and soak up the sun after The Farmher's Daughter's wedding in less then 3 weeks! Ahhh!
*Eating a well balanced diet with healing fats, proteins and carbs and that means consuming enough calories to get my metabolism off the ground floor and working again....I think that will come with the adrenals...but what do I know...it's all over my pay grade!!!
*Sleeping 7-8 hours every night
*Using Supplements for Sleep; 5 HTP, Melatonin and Melatonin Blend with Gaba (others I can't think of cause...cognitive ability is impaired!)
*Using Supplements for healing MY body which includes Adrenal Glandulars
*Drinking an organic tea blend infusion (steeped at least 20 minutes) of Ashwagandha, Rhemania, Holy Basil and Licorise to heal the adrenals
*Drinking Golden Milk using Synchro Gold Elixir, coconut milk and honey to help with inflammation
*Using Essential Oils: Positive Energy™ & Sleep Tight™ by Anada Apothecary, my own blends during the day for calming, well being
*Watch very little News....if I can't get it off the computer in 5 minutes then it's not worth the energy
*Prayer & Meditating on Scriptures
Intention: An Aim or Plan, A determination to live or act in a certain way.
When I chose my WORD for 2015 I was drawn to; Intention. In January I gave that word a lot of thought. Here we are 6 months into the New Year and I must confess the word "Intention" doesn't always cross my mind, but living with purpose does....daily! And living with gratitude and JOY does...daily!
We are all faced daily with people who want nothing more then to draw us down into the mud pit they live in. We live so much of our lives today in Social Media and reading or writing blogs; sometimes uncovering the ugliness that lies within, sometimes living a lie, sometimes fearing the masses.
We can choose to embrace a life that is filled with gratitude and JOY even in the midst of such ugliness. It really is our choice.
I recently joined a few FB groups for Mast Cell and Histamine Intolerance only to find mud slingers and naysayers! Finding those who are content being sick and want nothing more then to have you join them. I realized early on that if I were to stay on my path of healing it would be by embracing others who were positive and lived with intention. I also realized early on that I may bow out because the negativity can kill a joyful healing spirit.
And so I did!
Early in my Lyme diagnosis over 15 years ago (although I was sick for over 30 years), I also realized this same truth. I chose to heal in spite of the naysayers and haters. I chose each day to walk in wholeness. I chose to heal in spite of doctors who wanted to medicate with Rx instead of Food....who called Lyme, Depression when they didn't get what THEY wanted! And each day as I put one foot in front of the other and I chose to live a grateful life of intention!!!
And so I did!
Then one day I woke up from the long slumber. I realized that my life was dusty! I realized I was walking in wholeness and health! It just happened. Seriously! My mind was restored. My energy was restored. My life was restored.
Granted I'm now dealing with what is probably the aftermath of Lyme & 3 co-infections: Mast Cell Activation Disorder. But the day to day confused killer sickness of Lyme and friends was gone.....just not there! My liver had taken a beating from 3 years of Artemisia, but a year of walking in health and continuing to do all that I credited for my wellness (REAL Food, Adaptogen Herbs, Supplements, Acupuncture & Chinese Medicine) I brought my liver and all my body functions back to perfect health!!!! Perfect lab work that made my doctors want to do backflips off their desks!
I continue to work hard (Hubs agrees....if anyone can fight like hell it's me) and most recently I have met a new face of Mast Cell; Urticaria....HIVES! I wake up and usually have new spots....at first I thought maybe I had bedbugs only on my side of the bed!!! Stripping and washing the bed and setting up the air cleaner to zap them....haha!!! Then I realized that I'd caused a chemical Mast Cell reaction from trying some store bought sunscreen.....I don't use that stuff....really, but I had virgin skin on my back that never sees the light of day and didn't want to blister....trust me....blistering would of been a blessing.....so now my body is reacting daily and I feel like I have chicken pox. A spot here and a spot there....pretty soon we'll be able to connect the dots and have a piece of art!!!
This too shall pass!
I really do credit living a life of intention, a life of gratitude, a life of JOY and a life of believing God wanted nothing but the best for me that brought me to this place of vibrancy and walking in truth and health daily....whether my body always wants to join me or not....I still put one foot in front of the other and go forward!!!
WHETHER YOU BELieVE IT OR NOT!!!! There is no place else I'd rather be. I'm sure in the end.....if there ever really is an end to our suffering on earth...I KNOW there will be an end to suffering when I am on the other side, I will throw off my grave clothes and dance like no one is watching!!! Until then....I will still dance.
Each. And. Every. Day. I will put on the mantel of JOY and dance!
(I know there will be some who believe that the Lyme and co-infections are hiding...but the form of alternative therapy I used doesn't allow for that!!! Rife kills....it doesn't cause this pleomorphic disease to hide...it kills...consistent, persistent attacking for years...KILLS, detox rids the body of the dead crap and Chinese medicine brought me in a full circle of healing!.....whether you believe it or not....that is NOT my problem!!!)
*This is just my story. I am NOT a doctor and nothing I've said is intended for medical advice. Seek out a professional if you need help....PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO HELP YOU....truly only you can do this!!!
**We use a Rife EMEM 3...old technology!
*** Dr Zhang's Chinese Herbal Medicine (he's located in NYC and does consults...call him not me!)
**** Adaptogen Herbs (wide variety to heal the adrenals...no one can heal with the adrenals!)
***** DETOX; coffee enemas, sauna (to remove the dead crap...literally!)
PHOTO CREDIT! Thank you Jeanne Vail for this painting that has floated around on the web. You inspire me!
Wow, that was a pretty quick and an easy week of going raw! I've done juice fasts that nearly killed me! Raw with chewing is SO much easier. Keeping the variety going hasn't been that hard and yes, there have been several days that I just wanted to roast or cook something!
So, in my need for more....I decided to ferment a jar of fresh pineapple, butternut squash, fresh cranberries and cilantro! ( I've done the pineapple before with cilantro but not the other foods added...and it's SO good....you know how your brain is expecting sweet from the fruit...well the fermentation makes it sour...the brain gets a surprise!)
It's going to sit for a couple weeks but should be SO good!!!
I am SO in love with all the color! Adding foods of ALL colors is one of the healthiest things you can do!
Of course from an artist....THINK COLOR!!!
Pound out the juices, then add the brine. My ratio is 2 Tbsp salt to 1 Quart of water. Mix the brine and pour what you need over the veggies and fruit.
You know I've been doing this for so long, I don't need the fancy fermenting gadgets. A quart ziplock is good enough for me. Weight it down with a bag of water, then cover with a dish towel. Let it do it's thing.
The idea is to keep all the food under the water line. The weight of the bag does just that.
Now let it sit and do what fermented foods have been doing for centuries....create it's own pro-biotics. It's a predigested food!
I started a 21 day raw diet to jump-start my immune system. My blood work came back far from perfect as it was 2 years ago. My immune system is under attack. Narrowing that down will come this week when I can chat with my doc. My CD 57 (which is a NK (natural killer cells/“cluster designation”) Lyme marker) was also VERY low (20) showing a chronic infection...normal is 60-350+. It looks as if Lyme is back for another fight!!! I beat it's butt once I can beat it again! I really don't feel as bad as a 20, but my bone pain has been extremely intense. My memory is lapsing. My ability to find words is difficult. (If you look at it in the most simplest terms, my cells are only housing 20 NK on each cell to fight for me...as opposed to hundreds if not thousands! 20 is not very good....I need an army of NK to fight for me as God intended!)
The CD 57 test is a pretty sure thing. It's not nearly as costly (although don't get me wrong...it is quite pricey, but insurance covers it in your plan) as some other Lyme test. But it's a dead on test. No question about whether it's a negative, positive or indeterminate as with the other Lyme tests. They've developed some wonderful CD tests. CD 4 is for HIV. Over 200 CD markers have been name so far! Wow!!! What an incredible body our Creator made!!!
I know when it started. It was June that I questioned if Lyme or it's cohorts were back including Bartonella which is Cat Scratch Fever....I get the claw marks on my thighs. And frankly (cause as you know that's the only way I roll) I think it was Spring Lambing that caused me to come out of remission if indeed that is what happened. Lambing was extremely stressful, emotional, draining for a 56 year old woman....who God never intended to have babies at this age! The every 2 hour routine all night was enough to kill me and I know that's when I started to tank. I'm glad I'm not lambing again....of course I am! I don't even have enough energy to accomplish all I have right now. BUT I am grateful that Winter is settling in and the pace of life is much much much slower! So, I will spend this Winter kicking the crap out of Lyme once again using food, herbs, supplements and Rife. I've done it once. I know it can be done.
I purchased the ebook from Young and Raw, for the 21 day raw cleanse. I'm finding it much easier then the juicing fasts I've done in the past under doctor supervision. By day 3 of nothing but juice, the hunger pains are so intense I can't even sleep. And for those battling Cancer, it is a required regime to jump-start the immune system. I get it.
This was my breakfast the other morning! It would of taken a lot of energy to digest all of this, but sending it through the juicer removes all the bulk and left me with a 16oz glass of nutritious & delish juice!
I wondered if it would be boring to eat nothing but raw....but it's not! There are boundless combinations that include protein and fats to balance the diet. Yesterday's lunch was a big salad with dressing made of Chickpea Miso, Fresh Squeezed Lemon Juice, Salt, Pepper, Nutritional Yeast Flakes and a dash ofChili powder. I didn't think I could stomach a salad without olive oil...but I can! Olive oil isn't in the 21 day cleanse....but it's one of my favorite oils on salad. (I'm not following their menu plan....but using it for guidance.)
Trying to keep it simple but also exciting......I made my guacamole dip for dinner and ate it with veggie sticks! YUM!!! A great way to end my 1st day of the 21 day challenge.
I'm still trying to focus on Anti foods; anti-inflammatory, anti-anaphylactic, anti-histamine. After work ing with those foods for the past 12 months, I'm doing exceptionally well, tolerating many histamine foods (avocado) that were off limits for me last year. Following the principles that The Low Histamine Chef teaches works....but it hasn't been enough to boost my immune system...of course I haven't been strict enough.
Here's more info on eating a Raw Foods Diet.
CHEERS!!!! Here's to renewed health in 2015!
Guac my style is SUCH a small and delectable blessing!
2 years ago I'd never eaten an avocado let alone guacamole! I truly think it was a texture thing. I wonder where The Farmer's Daughter gets it from!
If you've never been struck down with sickness and food issues, you truly are doing something right! However, I am of the opinion that we all are living in fallen and broken bodies waiting for resurrection day to become whole and re-born in HIS image!!! Oh what a day that will be!!!
Avocado is a high histamine food, but I have not been avoiding histamine foods completely unless it really wants me dead. Guac doesn't want me dead! Yippee! It's one of those GOOD fats that my aging brain needs desperately!
I smash 1 or 2 or 3 avocado, mixing it with lots of finely chopped red onion (high in ANTI), red pepper (high in ANTI), a big handful of Cilantro chopped (high in ANTI), and 1/2-1 lime squeezed, salt & pepper. (I'm still avoiding the nightshade family...tomato makes joint pains worse....and this version is not lacking in flavor at all!)
Since I don't do any form of chip except an occasional bean chip, I spread it on sourdough bread.....and oh YUM!!! I ate 2 whole avocados yesterday! Couldn't help myself! It was SO good with my big dinner salad.
I'm grateful for FERMENTS!!
I've been a big fermenter for over 8 years. My first ferments were Kraut and To Die For Dill Pickles!!!
I decided to grow Daikon Radishes this Fall.....however, I've never even eaten a Daikon! They grew like gang busters and every seed germinated! I had NO idea that they would be SO huge! My mission was to figure out what to do with these babies and the best way to preserve all of the nutrients and more from a food is to ferment it!!!
The most popular ferment I found was Banh Mi. It's an Vietnamese relish. The Farmer's Daughter's beau is Vietnamese...SO I figured I'd give it a try because if nothing else I'd have some guinea pigs to clean it up!
To my surprise I LOVE Banh Mi!!! The heat from the radishes diminishes a little, but the heat from the chile pepper more then made up for it!!!
I'm embarrassed to confess that this is the first time I used this little gadget! It really is all they hoot about. Pretty nifty for a hand cranked machine.
I got mine last Christmas for around $25! Not bad and it comes with 3 blades. I still don't know all that it's capable, but will play with it a little more...promise!
Banh Mi is basically just Daikon Radishes, Carrots and Chile Pepper. To ferment I use 2Tbsp of salt to 1 Qt of water. I packed my 1/2 gallon jar and then poured the salt water over top. You always need to make sure that everything is weighed down and water covers it well. I used a smaller lid to keep everything under water and from air reaching it. My first fermented kraut I used a clean rock!! You can also fill a ziplock with salty water (in case it leaks) and pop it in the opening....anything that will weigh down and keep it from oxidation. Then you can either put a lid back on slightly or cover with a dish cloth and rubber band. There are new fermenting gadgets on the market that didn't exist 8 years ago (well they did at the wine making store!!)....and frankly you don't need them. But they are pretty nifty and you might feel better using them. And really if a nifty gadget will get you to make ferments then all the more buy them!!! Ferments are a life giving food and everyone needs them!
Sour is a food that we have forgotten to love! Sour is our friend!!! Ferments are filled with probiotics that love your gut! Vietnamese use Banh Mi to make a "deli" sandwich. It's a condiment....I use mine on my salad every evening for dinner and oh YUM!!! It adds just the right amount of sour to my salad with EVOO.
I put a lid on my jar a little too tight. It didn't hurt anything, just built up a chlorine smell. Which isn't harmful and dissipated once I loosened the lid. I left my Banh Mi for 2 weeks. If you like it more sour, then leave longer. Once you put your ferments in the fridge it ceases the fermentation process.
My favorite source for fermentation was always Wild Fermentations by Sandor Katz.
FYI: Ferments are high in Histamine. If you are still very sensitive to Histamine due to Histamine Intolerance and/or Mast Cell Activation Disorder, then wait until your system is stronger. I couldn't do ferments for a good year until I started really focusing on the MCAD. They don't seem to be a problem now...which I am every so GRATEFUL for!!!