We all live in this fallen and broken world and consequently we all carry around these broken and bruised bodies. That is, until we are redeemed on the day of Glory when we shall be given new bodies that will never break and then reside with Jesus in the new heavens and new earth for all of eternity.
My body has been through a lot in almost 58 years. Most recently Lyme Disease & 3 co-infections plus, I've battled MCAD (Mast Cell Activation Disorder) which sent me into anaphylactic shock twice in the past 5 years. That in itself is enough to kill ya!! And if it doesn't kill ya, it will beat you down to a pulp!
Also in the past 5 years within a 2 year span we lost 3 of our 4 parents. That too is enough to break any heart.
Although the MCAD has been much improved, there have been other things ailing me. Things I can't shake. Things that for a while had no name.
And so, my health saga continues. I'm wondering....was I born this way or was it all the years spent with Lyme & Company that did this to me?
Intention: An Aim or Plan, A determination to live or act in a certain way.
When I chose my WORD for 2015 I was drawn to; Intention. In January I gave that word a lot of thought. Here we are 6 months into the New Year and I must confess the word "Intention" doesn't always cross my mind, but living with purpose does....daily! And living with gratitude and JOY does...daily!
We are all faced daily with people who want nothing more then to draw us down into the mud pit they live in. We live so much of our lives today in Social Media and reading or writing blogs; sometimes uncovering the ugliness that lies within, sometimes living a lie, sometimes fearing the masses.
We can choose to embrace a life that is filled with gratitude and JOY even in the midst of such ugliness. It really is our choice.
I recently joined a few FB groups for Mast Cell and Histamine Intolerance only to find mud slingers and naysayers! Finding those who are content being sick and want nothing more then to have you join them. I realized early on that if I were to stay on my path of healing it would be by embracing others who were positive and lived with intention. I also realized early on that I may bow out because the negativity can kill a joyful healing spirit.
And so I did!
Early in my Lyme diagnosis over 15 years ago (although I was sick for over 30 years), I also realized this same truth. I chose to heal in spite of the naysayers and haters. I chose each day to walk in wholeness. I chose to heal in spite of doctors who wanted to medicate with Rx instead of Food....who called Lyme, Depression when they didn't get what THEY wanted! And each day as I put one foot in front of the other and I chose to live a grateful life of intention!!!
And so I did!
Then one day I woke up from the long slumber. I realized that my life was dusty! I realized I was walking in wholeness and health! It just happened. Seriously! My mind was restored. My energy was restored. My life was restored.
Granted I'm now dealing with what is probably the aftermath of Lyme & 3 co-infections: Mast Cell Activation Disorder. But the day to day confused killer sickness of Lyme and friends was gone.....just not there! My liver had taken a beating from 3 years of Artemisia, but a year of walking in health and continuing to do all that I credited for my wellness (REAL Food, Adaptogen Herbs, Supplements, Acupuncture & Chinese Medicine) I brought my liver and all my body functions back to perfect health!!!! Perfect lab work that made my doctors want to do backflips off their desks!
I continue to work hard (Hubs agrees....if anyone can fight like hell it's me) and most recently I have met a new face of Mast Cell; Urticaria....HIVES! I wake up and usually have new spots....at first I thought maybe I had bedbugs only on my side of the bed!!! Stripping and washing the bed and setting up the air cleaner to zap them....haha!!! Then I realized that I'd caused a chemical Mast Cell reaction from trying some store bought sunscreen.....I don't use that stuff....really, but I had virgin skin on my back that never sees the light of day and didn't want to blister....trust me....blistering would of been a blessing.....so now my body is reacting daily and I feel like I have chicken pox. A spot here and a spot there....pretty soon we'll be able to connect the dots and have a piece of art!!!
This too shall pass!
I really do credit living a life of intention, a life of gratitude, a life of JOY and a life of believing God wanted nothing but the best for me that brought me to this place of vibrancy and walking in truth and health daily....whether my body always wants to join me or not....I still put one foot in front of the other and go forward!!!
WHETHER YOU BELieVE IT OR NOT!!!! There is no place else I'd rather be. I'm sure in the end.....if there ever really is an end to our suffering on earth...I KNOW there will be an end to suffering when I am on the other side, I will throw off my grave clothes and dance like no one is watching!!! Until then....I will still dance.
Each. And. Every. Day. I will put on the mantel of JOY and dance!
(I know there will be some who believe that the Lyme and co-infections are hiding...but the form of alternative therapy I used doesn't allow for that!!! Rife kills....it doesn't cause this pleomorphic disease to hide...it kills...consistent, persistent attacking for years...KILLS, detox rids the body of the dead crap and Chinese medicine brought me in a full circle of healing!.....whether you believe it or not....that is NOT my problem!!!)
*This is just my story. I am NOT a doctor and nothing I've said is intended for medical advice. Seek out a professional if you need help....PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO HELP YOU....truly only you can do this!!!
**We use a Rife EMEM 3...old technology!
*** Dr Zhang's Chinese Herbal Medicine (he's located in NYC and does consults...call him not me!)
**** Adaptogen Herbs (wide variety to heal the adrenals...no one can heal with the adrenals!)
***** DETOX; coffee enemas, sauna (to remove the dead crap...literally!)
PHOTO CREDIT! Thank you Jeanne Vail for this painting that has floated around on the web. You inspire me!
2 years ago (R)...me, no anti-histamines (minimal except at bedtime), just dietary restrictions....severe....no meat, not much. But no inflammation to speak of.
If you know anything about me, you know that I LOVE meat! I adore(d) our farm raised chicken, beef, goat and lamb....it just doesn't return the sentiments!
Over the last 6ish years my body started to shift. I was healing from Chronic Lyme & company through my 40's and never even knew I was in the early stages of menopause...trust me if most women had something worse to complain about they'd be better off....that is until things paused! Meno-Pause!
It was at that point that the shift for me went from being a meat eater to being nearly killed by meat!
I am approaching my first & second anniversary of calling 911 for anaphylactic shock. Both occurred in January, 3 years and 3 days apart which is just a coincidence. There is nothing significant about it...we eliminated a "dead" Christmas Tree, so mold isn't the problem. We've had the mold sniffing dog go through our house and around our property...no mold. One very important common factor was NUTS! They also want me DEAD!
Plain and simple...it was food(s)! Lots of foods! It took 3 years and the second 911 call to get a diagnosis. Since my diagnosis in early Spring of 2014, I have made leaps and bounds with my health....more specifically Mast Cell Activation Disorder or Histamine Intolerance. And yes, we believe that the shift during menopause threw me into it head first.
I started a 21 day raw diet to jump-start my immune system. My blood work came back far from perfect as it was 2 years ago. My immune system is under attack. Narrowing that down will come this week when I can chat with my doc. My CD 57 (which is a NK (natural killer cells/“cluster designation”) Lyme marker) was also VERY low (20) showing a chronic infection...normal is 60-350+. It looks as if Lyme is back for another fight!!! I beat it's butt once I can beat it again! I really don't feel as bad as a 20, but my bone pain has been extremely intense. My memory is lapsing. My ability to find words is difficult. (If you look at it in the most simplest terms, my cells are only housing 20 NK on each cell to fight for me...as opposed to hundreds if not thousands! 20 is not very good....I need an army of NK to fight for me as God intended!)
The CD 57 test is a pretty sure thing. It's not nearly as costly (although don't get me wrong...it is quite pricey, but insurance covers it in your plan) as some other Lyme test. But it's a dead on test. No question about whether it's a negative, positive or indeterminate as with the other Lyme tests. They've developed some wonderful CD tests. CD 4 is for HIV. Over 200 CD markers have been name so far! Wow!!! What an incredible body our Creator made!!!
I know when it started. It was June that I questioned if Lyme or it's cohorts were back including Bartonella which is Cat Scratch Fever....I get the claw marks on my thighs. And frankly (cause as you know that's the only way I roll) I think it was Spring Lambing that caused me to come out of remission if indeed that is what happened. Lambing was extremely stressful, emotional, draining for a 56 year old woman....who God never intended to have babies at this age! The every 2 hour routine all night was enough to kill me and I know that's when I started to tank. I'm glad I'm not lambing again....of course I am! I don't even have enough energy to accomplish all I have right now. BUT I am grateful that Winter is settling in and the pace of life is much much much slower! So, I will spend this Winter kicking the crap out of Lyme once again using food, herbs, supplements and Rife. I've done it once. I know it can be done.
I purchased the ebook from Young and Raw, for the 21 day raw cleanse. I'm finding it much easier then the juicing fasts I've done in the past under doctor supervision. By day 3 of nothing but juice, the hunger pains are so intense I can't even sleep. And for those battling Cancer, it is a required regime to jump-start the immune system. I get it.
This was my breakfast the other morning! It would of taken a lot of energy to digest all of this, but sending it through the juicer removes all the bulk and left me with a 16oz glass of nutritious & delish juice!
I wondered if it would be boring to eat nothing but raw....but it's not! There are boundless combinations that include protein and fats to balance the diet. Yesterday's lunch was a big salad with dressing made of Chickpea Miso, Fresh Squeezed Lemon Juice, Salt, Pepper, Nutritional Yeast Flakes and a dash ofChili powder. I didn't think I could stomach a salad without olive oil...but I can! Olive oil isn't in the 21 day cleanse....but it's one of my favorite oils on salad. (I'm not following their menu plan....but using it for guidance.)
Trying to keep it simple but also exciting......I made my guacamole dip for dinner and ate it with veggie sticks! YUM!!! A great way to end my 1st day of the 21 day challenge.
I'm still trying to focus on Anti foods; anti-inflammatory, anti-anaphylactic, anti-histamine. After work ing with those foods for the past 12 months, I'm doing exceptionally well, tolerating many histamine foods (avocado) that were off limits for me last year. Following the principles that The Low Histamine Chef teaches works....but it hasn't been enough to boost my immune system...of course I haven't been strict enough.
Here's more info on eating a Raw Foods Diet.
CHEERS!!!! Here's to renewed health in 2015!